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| Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21 |
Everything happens for a reason.
My original plans for this past week were to complete my curriculum planning for the year to submit to the school district. I wanted to finally have my act together in time to participate in a few fun blog hops, since blogging is what I do for stress relief. We were going to have fun celebrating Lil Sis’ third birthday. Just generally enjoy one of the last weeks of summer break before we get into high gear for the school year.
Instead, I was extremely ill and dehydrated with an autoimmune flare-up and stomach virus for six days. All three girls also developed the fever and vomiting. My only pair of glasses broke. DH got a ticket for not wearing his seat belt. We got a huge bill from the hospital for my bloodwork, which the insurance should’ve covered and didn’t. I found out my gastroenterologist is relocating out of the area and I have to start over with a new doctor, somehow, somewhere. (Anyone who lives with chronic illness can appreciate how difficult it is to find a good doctor and what a difference it can make in the quality of your life.) All of these annoyances were adding up to defeat me.
Then, as He so often does, God gave me something to put it all in a different perspective.
My Grandma passed away on Lil Sis’ birthday. To say I am grieved would be an understatement. To write a tribute to her requires a whole other blog post, which I will be working on, Lord willing. I am very sad that we couldn’t make it to the funeral because of the distance and our illness. I don’t understand why these things have happened or why God chose this timing, but I don’t waver in my belief that there is a reason.
All of this was a surprise to me. None of it was a surprise to God.
From now on, my “plans” will be written in pencil only. I’ve learned yet another lesson in my dependence on God’s grace and His sufficiency to carry me through. I’d rather close my eyes in the dark and take His hand to lead me than to have a wide and clear path of my own choosing.
13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." James 4:13-15